Thank you for writing this and sharing your experience. It took my a long time to see that my Ayurvedic lifestyle was orthorexia, despite being someone with a history of eating disorder. It really did feel like I had found the thing that was "the answer", and couldn't see how the question I was asking was "what will give me perfect control over this body and the mystery of it". And I'm not saying Ayurveda is the problem. It also helped me relate to food in a new way. The lens I was looking at it through was steeped in our body hierarchy culture, perfectionism, and control.
Thank you for writing this and sharing your experience. It took my a long time to see that my Ayurvedic lifestyle was orthorexia, despite being someone with a history of eating disorder. It really did feel like I had found the thing that was "the answer", and couldn't see how the question I was asking was "what will give me perfect control over this body and the mystery of it". And I'm not saying Ayurveda is the problem. It also helped me relate to food in a new way. The lens I was looking at it through was steeped in our body hierarchy culture, perfectionism, and control.